Rush of Insanity

  Rush of Insanity

  Eden Summers

  Contents

  Bonus Opportunity

  Chapter 1

  Chapter 2

  Chapter 3

  Chapter 4

  Chapter 5

  Chapter 6

  Chapter 7

  Chapter 8

  Chapter 9

  Bonus Opportunity

  Also by Eden Summers

  About the Author

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  Chapter One

  Chapter Two

  Chapter Three

  Copyright © 2017 by Eden Summers

  Cover Art by R.B.A Designs

  This book is a work of fiction. The names, characters, places, and incidents are products of the writer’s imagination or have been used fictitiously and are not to be construed as real. Any resemblance to persons, living or dead, actual events, locales or organizations is entirely coincidental.

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  Chapter One

  Harper Douglas eyed the screaming fans seated around her and tried to ignore the prickle of paranoia that informed her she stood out like a flare in a sea of darkened faces. She promised herself she’d never come here again. Not to another concert. Not when the singer was Judd Hart.

  The only reason she was inside the packed stadium was because of the recent dissolution of her friend’s marriage. If Nicole hadn’t been depressed and barely communicative for weeks, Harper could’ve ignored the sudden, almost tantrum-like demands to attend. She could’ve been sitting on her sofa right now, eating popcorn and pretending her last job as Judd’s stylist hadn’t existed.

  Instead, she succumbed to incessant nagging from a woman who acted like a sleep deprived five-year-old in need of a Ritalin prescription and dragged her feet to a concert performed by her deliriously good looking ex. All in the name of friendship.

  “Do we have to stay for the entire show?” Harper raised her voice to drown out the lyrical orgasm hitting her ears. Judd’s delicious tone was already sinking under her skin, clawing its way into her erogenous zones.

  “Stop being a douche.” Nicole poked out her tongue. “Doesn’t this bring back great memories?”

  Great? Of course. But did the recollection slice through her chest with the force of a rusted butter knife? Most definitely.

  The man was a hypnotist. Someone who could manipulate the mind and body with a flash of those hazel eyes. She’d already spent fifteen months forcing the memories of him from her life. Some days, surviving without him was like conquering a craving for soda, chocolate, or coffee. The yearning was a constant annoyance, yet usually bearable. On others, it was like fighting the need to breathe.

  Yeah, unfortunately he was that good—sexy as sin, sly as hell, and as awe inspiring as Neil Armstrong’s boot imprint on the moon. Talent didn’t come close to what this man had flowing through his veins. His musical gift—his voice and his lyrics—were so perfectly intertwined that nobody could fault his perfection. It was the gentlemanly, I’m-a-lover-not-a-fighter attitude that topped it off, making fan girls swoon.

  “Why do you always turn into a head case around him?” Nicole’s voice interrupted the music Harper wished she could despise. “It’s not like he can see you up here. We’re practically closer to God than we are to Judd right now.”

  Hilarious. Harper rolled her eyes. Her friend would never understand the affect her ex had on her. She didn’t understand it herself. Around Judd the world ceased to exist, and in its place something new evolved. Something that made the hairs on the back of her neck tingle and all her nerves stand at attention.

  All the damn time.

  And nothing was ever the same again, not emotions, not sensations, even the air tasted different after a Judd high.

  The worst part was becoming someone different. Harper had no control over who she was around him. He dragged the craziness out of her and jabbed at it with a sharp stick. Poke, poke, poke. The result was mind-altering, soul shattering sex, but she wasn’t sure the delirious pleasure was worth the price of her sanity.

  Fifteen months ago, she’d been convinced they didn’t have a future. Not merely because she skirted psychosis in his presence, but because their lifestyles were miles apart. Only now, seeing his tempting body highlighted in stage lights, felt like a sign from the heavens. A sign she chose to ignore.

  “If you wanted to come to the concert with someone willing to bounce along to the beat and scream their overachieving groupie lungs out, you shouldn’t have insisted on dragging me along.” She shifted in her chair, still endeavoring to fade into the background when a bullseye was tattooed on her forehead. “You know I’m more than uncomfortable being here.”

  “Yeah, well, I didn’t think you’d be this paranoid.”

  Paranoid? Pfft. She’d surpassed that phase with flying colors. What Harper had now was full-blown nausea-inducing anxiety. Problem was, her feelings had nothing to do with how Judd would respond if he knew she was here and everything to do with how she would react if they came face-to-face.

  Thus the basis of choosing seats that were well above the nosebleed section.

  She couldn’t look at the stage for longer than sixty seconds without her belly churning. She feared her heart would break at close proximity, and that stony, undefeated organ wasn’t going to succumb after all this time. Nope. Too much time had passed since she walked from Judd’s life, and she wasn’t going to start looking back now.

  It’s not like he ever did.

  “How you doing tonight, Denver?”

  Harper winced at the sound of his devilish drawl. The crowd erupted around her, a mass of crazed siren wails all demanding attention. It was infuriating—the noise and the jealousy it provoked. His chuckle into the microphone didn’t help, that honeyed voice seeped through every speaker to hit her hard in the vagina region.

  “I’m in the mood for a game,” he announced. “Who wants to play?”

  She stiffened, as if he’d spoken the words to her and her alone. He didn’t have a reputation for crowd interaction. She knew because she’d seen him perform many times. Every city and every concert in his last tour, to be exact.

  She shuffled forward in her chair and peered over the top of heads to see the man she’d been trying to ignore. Her disloyal heart celebrated with painful arrhythmia.

  Damn him.

  He was still the stuff of fantasies. His tank was loose, exposing tanned, muscled arms. His chin-length hair was mussed, the tangled strands brushing against the barely visible stubble on his jaw like a lover’s fingers, and his drugging gaze beamed down at her from the projection screens at either side of the stage.

  “Jensen, can you kill the glare and turn on the house lights?”

  Oh, shit. She slunk into her chair as the stadium was bathed in a fluorescent glow. There was no way he could see her up here. But she felt exposed. Naked in front of a crowd of over fifteen thousand.

  “That’s perfect. Now I can see all your gorgeous faces.” He strode to the front of the stage, his faded, ripped jeans exposing tempting parts of his legs
as he searched the sea of fans. “It’s a simple game, last one standing wins.”

  Shouts rang out—“What do we win?” “Are you the prize?” “Pick me, pick me.”

  The last came from the person seated next to her—her best friend—which Harper was happy to counter with a Bitch, please glare.

  Judd removed his earpiece and a satisfied smirk tilted his lips. “First question—hands up if you’re a local.”

  The sea erupted with high flying fingers. Harper remained slumped, happy to sit this one out. Whatever the prize was, she didn’t want it. Not now. Not ever.

  “Keep those hands high if you’ve been to one of my concerts before.”

  Very few hands lowered, everyone still waving madly to gain any sort of attention.

  “That’s awesome. I appreciate the loyalty.” He shaded his eyes, peering into the upper levels. “Now, this time, I want you to keep your hand raised and stand if you have all my albums. I mean CDs not downloads.”

  Harper scoffed. She remembered a conversation with him a lifetime ago about CDs versus iTunes. He was a technology nut and loved having access to his music wherever he went. Whereas she preferred something tangible. Always would.

  Groans murmured through the stadium as people lowered their hands and a lot less stood.

  “You have all his CDs, don’t you?” Nicole nudged her arm. “Stand up.”

  “No, thank you.”

  Her friend huffed and pushed to her feet, raising her hand high.

  “What the hell are you doing?” Harper tried to tug Nicole back down and was batted away by a swinging arm. “You don’t have all his CDs.”

  “No. But you do. And if you’re not going to participate, I’ll do it for you.”

  People in the row below shot them disapproving glares. People in the seats beside them, too. They didn’t understand the importance of being inconspicuous. Obviously, Nicole didn’t either.

  “Sit the hell down,” Harper grated through clenched teeth.

  She wasn’t only hiding from Judd, it was also his security team. Anyone who had worked on the previous tour would recognize her, and she didn’t want the man of the hour finding out she was here.

  “Harper,” Nicole warned. “You’re ruining my night.”

  “Mine, too,” the man beside her leaned forward to add.

  She shot him a look that spoke of rage and insanity. “Fine.” She slunked as far down in her chair as possible without the threat of a back spasm and crossed her arms over her chest. “Just pretend I’m not here.”

  “My next question will see most of your butts in seats—”

  She closed her eyes at the sound of his voice, wishing away the past and their inevitable end.

  “—how many of you have a tattoo that contains my lyrics?”

  Oh, shit. Harper’s stomach dissolved in a mass of tingles and the script on the side of her left arm itched. She opened her eyes to the stadium roof and measured her breathing. Slow in. Slow out. The question hit her in the feels, and she’d sat through enough emotional crap because of this man to last a lifetime.

  No more. Please, no more.

  She didn’t want to see the result of his question. To place a number on how many women had marked their body for Judd, like she had. But it was a train wreck she couldn’t refrain from witnessing.

  She scooted back in her chair and hunted through the mass of people. One…Two…Three…Four… There were more on the lower levels and no doubt some were out of view. All female. Probably all grinning like they scored a role on The Bachelor, when in reality it highlighted their pathetic existence. And then there was Nicole, still standing proud at Harper’s side, inching closer to the cusp of being slaughtered.

  “I wish you’d sit down,” she whispered, not hiding the plea in her tone. This was like a Mission Impossible pivotal life and death scene and Nicole simply didn’t understand the significance of being stealthy.

  “Well, maybe you shouldn’t have had ‘love is an affliction,’ tattooed on your arm.”

  “Last question.” Judd spoke over the top of them. “And this is the most important.”

  She couldn’t help it, she inched to the edge of her seat, fully invested on what he said next. Judd might not be famous for crowd interaction, but he was a ladies man and she wanted to see the face of the wench who would win something from the charmer she used to claim as her own.

  “Here goes.” Judd rubbed his hands together, glancing from woman to woman to woman. “Keep standing if your name is Harper Douglas.”

  Oh, fuck.

  Nicole screamed, the piercing volume causing a Mexican wave of gazes to snap in their direction. Surrounded by an army of betrayers, Harper had no choice but to slide off her seat and crouch in the leg space as she silently begged for the world to end.

  “Sit the hell down,” she pleaded. “Sit the hell down!”

  Nicole waved one arm and used the other to point a traitorous finger toward Harper’s hiding place.

  No. No, no, no, no, no. This wasn’t real. Nope. She was going to stand up and find herself miraculously naked. Everyone would laugh. She would be horrified. Then she’d wake up in a cold sweat realizing this was all some elaborately horrific nightmare and her existence would be peaceful again.

  Only the sound of Judd’s laughter had never been as clear in her dreams. So sleek. So captivating. Yet it sank into her ears with more weight than Nicole’s psychotic screech.

  “It looks like Harper is here,” he drawled. “Why don’t you come down and see me, princess?”

  Chapter Two

  The far off scream came from the upper level. Judd squinted and still couldn’t make out the owner of the voice. It definitely wasn’t Harper, though. There was no way his moody, snarly femme fatale would screech like that. Not for him. Well, at least not anywhere other than the bedroom.

  The high-pitched noise had to be coming from a friend. Maybe Nicole. At least he hoped so. If some whack job was pretending to be his Harper, he’d lose his shit. Especially when his heart was already thumping at the possibility of seeing her.

  “I’ve got a better idea.” He glanced to side-stage on his left, pinning Kyle, his assistant, with a stare. “Why don’t we send one of the security team to escort you backstage?” He stepped back from the microphone, still holding Kyle’s attention. “Don’t let her leave the building. Do you hear me? I want her backstage when I finish the show. And tell whoever she’s here with that she won’t be leaving with them tonight.”

  Kyle nodded and slunk from view, always eager to keep his six-figure salary.

  Judd returned his focus to the crowd, honing in on the woman who now stood in the middle of the upper level stairwell. His throat tightened, his legs grew heavy, and for the first time in a year, his cock stirred with a lethargic pulse, as if awoken from hibernation.

  Harper. His Harper. Even from the opposite side of the stadium, he could recognize her—the black hair, the petite height, the hand gesture that he couldn’t quite make out but had the sneaking suspicion was the bird.

  He chuckled and repositioned his ear piece, enthusiastic to get his performance over with. Two of his security team were already closing in on her, and he was confident they’d ensure she didn’t leave.

  “Okay, Denver. Let’s get this show back on the road.”

  On cue, the stadium fell into darkness. A wave of squealing and yelling battered into him, vibrating the stadium floor and thrumming into his limbs. The stage lights burst to life, increasing the noise to a deafening pitch. He blinked through the temporary blindness as his band kicked off the next song, and together they blew the minds of everyone in the building.

  Well, almost everyone.

  He wasn’t a mind reader but he was positive Harper wouldn’t be impressed at being escorted backstage. He could picture her screaming his name just like the fans before him, only she wouldn’t have the same favorable tone. She would be furious and he couldn’t wait to witness it for himself.

  She dese
rved retribution for what she’d put him through. Every show was haunted by her. No matter how many people he performed to or where he was in the world. He could be surrounded by wall to wall adoration, yet he could never make out the faces of his fans. None of them were unique. All of them were her.

  Every fucking one of them.

  He would’ve taken the punishment if he’d been the cause of their relationship break down. But she was the one who walked out on him. Without a word or a kiss, she penned a note and never looked back.

  His pride still hadn’t recovered. Not completely.

  Now it was time to get the answers he deserved.

  He ploughed through the rest of his set, unable to wipe the smirk from his face. He could already picture the reunion. There’d be snarling and hissing. Maybe a bite or two. And after the fighting would come the inevitable fucking. Just like the good ol’ days.

  “Good night, Denver.” He spread his arms wide, sucked in the euphoria streaming through the air and then jogged from the stage. There was no encore. No tease for one more song. He was currently riding the most epic natural high of his life and he lacked the restraint to stay away from his woman a moment longer.

  “Where is she?” He dislodged his in-ear monitors as he reached Kyle in the wings.

  “Your dressing room.”

  Good. His steps didn’t falter as he yanked off his tank and tucked part of the material into his pocket. He untangled himself from the wires leading down his back to the receiver pack attached to his jeans and shoved the equipment at his assistant’s chest.

  “You know your fans will roast you online for not doing an encore.”

  “I’ll deal with it.” He increased his pace, striding out the distance as fast as he could without running.

  “Judd, wait.”

  He clenched his fists and squeezed his eyes shut briefly, oh so briefly, to stop himself from making a scene. Pride had kept him from going after Harper all those months ago, but it was an unwavering gentlemanly persona that now stopped him from yelling I don’t fucking care and launching his arms in the air to give the world the middle-finger salute.